Chances

I actually have never told this story before to anyone, but I dont know why I suddenly feel like sharing this figment of my life.

Its something I regret now when I think about it.

There was this guy. Somewhere along the lines when I was in form 6 and I just broke up with my first ex. Apparently this guy has seen me in perfects gala or something like that. I played a queen in a drama. Withered rose. I still remmember everyhting like it happened yesterday.

He got my number from a friend, and he actually had the balls to call me and speak to me. Instead of the lame guys who miss calls, or messages like "hi, can we make friends". He called me and introduced himself and after a few weeks on the phone he said he liked me and he wants to see me.

I was actually skeptical about meeting him, but I went ahead, I went with a friend and you know he recognises me, I dont. We met up in A&W seremban in the morning. He saw my car and he walked up to my car. At that very moment I decided I dont like him.

You know why? Becuase he did not look good. Now that I think about it, I feel like an utter bitch. I have no idea how I could do something like this!? It just baffles me. I got down from the car already decided to say no. I did not get to know him, heck I din even give him a chance.

Whether he was a fake, or he was trying to bang me its besides the point. The point is, if I would have given him a chance, probably I wouldnt be here, like this right now. For the better or for the worse.

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Now when I actually like someone I will sell my soul for that guy and he is not even giving me a chance, i know exactly how it feels.

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This is karma! I deserve this!!

To that guy,

I dont remmember your name, but I know how you look like. If by hook or crook you do land on this website, I just would like to say, I am sorry. I was very young and naive.

Sincerely, I am sorry.